it hurts being too close to someone,

first you think that you're the most important person to them,
and then you find out you're just the second in their heart,

i wish, that would just stop happening to me,
beacuse of that i feel so lonely,
no one would ever make me feel loved,

sometimes, i believe that there is no way of making this right,
sometimes, i think it would be better if i just go to sleep forever
earlier than the normal age, so i wouldn't have to feel so sad and lonely,
i know its selfish thinking,
but i really dont want to feel this way anymore.

i admit it...